Dare2Diva is Grateful

I think the experiment may have worked. My shrink told me to break my sustain release tablet in half so I get the hit of medication over night rather than slowly over the 24hrs. This was to stop me from feeling groggy all day and I think it worked. I did sleep in today but I didn't feel at all groggy today so I am looking forward to finding out what happens tomorrow. I had my nails done today and I had yet another new person do my nails. I hate having to explain each time to a new person that my hands shake and twitch and I get that pity look. Today I got the 'Poor darling' in front of everyone in the salon. Good grief. I suppose when my hand decides to jump out of her hand I can't expect anything but for her to notice something isn't right. Today by foot twitched while I was getting a pedicure but I could explain that away as ticklish. Hands, not so easy. Oh well. Universe 1) I am grateful I was able to go back to sleep after I woke up at 6am 2) I am grateful f

What a glorious day we had today. Nice and warm and sunny. I certainly made sure I got my dose of vitamin D. I have found out that somebody I cared about and lied about having a mental illness (just diagnosed with depression) and has lied to me about a number of things. I am furious. Why would you lie about that sort of thing? He took advantage of my situation and ran with it. I think I handled it well though. I didn't let it affect my day which was good. I was able to express how angry and hurt I was and left it at that. Universe 1) I am grateful I was able to have an extra 30mins sleep this morning and I woke up quite rested. 2) I am grateful I didn't feel so tired while driving to work this morning. 3) I am grateful I got to work early after an amazingly quick drive into work. 4) I am grateful I allowed myself to be angry and then I let it go. This is a big step for me. 5) I am grateful for the lunchtime walk and shopping trip. I didn't buy anything but enjoyed th

It has been a very long and tiring day so I will head straight into it. Universe 1) I am grateful I woke up and didn't stay hanging in bed today. It meant I got to work at a good time. 2) I am grateful I have another new audio book to listen to on the positive thinking of happiness. Listening to positive words help to start my day positively. 3) I am grateful I had some sedating medication to calm me down today while I was waiting for my interview even though the interview didn't happen. It will happen next week. 4) I am grateful for the cuppa and chat I had with 2 of the gals at work. It was nice to have a break 5) I am grateful I was able to have lunch by myself today. I was feeling really nervous and I needed that me time 6) I am grateful I have had dinner already because I really need to go to bed early. Blessings

I had a positive start to the morning with a visit to see my shrink. I've never seen a shrink that actually listens to how a patient feels. I have had an addition to meds and a blood test. I have to call on Monday and see if my meds need to change because I told him my brain feels like I am in a fog. No other shrink has given a damn about the fact that I have to function normally in the world. This one does. Universe 1) I am grateful I was able to have an extra 30mins sleep this morning 2) I am grateful I have such a wonderful medical team. My GP is awesome, my psychologist is really great and my shrink actually listens and cares how I feel. I am truly blessed. 3) I am grateful I got news that I have a first interview tomorrow over the phone. This was after my meeting with the agency yesterday. 4) I am grateful I have enough hours in the bank so I could use those hours to cover the morning. 5) I am grateful I had a good evening. It is always good to have an easy night teachi

I'm feeling really flat this evening which I think is due to exhaustion which is due to my lack of iron and also my not sleeping well. Straight into todays entry then.... Universe 1) I am grateful I allowed myself to snooze for an hour this morning before getting into my day. 2) I am grateful for my breakfast this morning. I woke up really hungry. 3) I am grateful I have flexible hours at work. 4) I am grateful I had a very positive meeting with a recruiter today. The perfect job is searching for me. 5) I am grateful that I have had the odd 'normal' interaction with my father the past couple of days. It makes it easier to be able to act like a normal person rather than strangers. Blessings

Today was a tough day to say the least. Normally I would think it would have been hard because it is mums birthday but that's not it. I don't feel anything at all about the significance of the day and that is what upsets me. It also upsets me that I don't remember any love coming from either parents during my existence and I guess that is why I don't feel anything today except anger and guilt for feeling angry. I did see my sister and her kids this afternoon and then my GP which has lifted my mood. Universe 1) I am grateful I woke up early ie on time today. I needed to leave work early to see my GP and that meant an early start. I was the only person in the office for 30mins. 2) I am grateful I remembered my mothers birthday and while I am trying to understand why I don't feel anything, I know that I am thinking about her. 3) I am grateful the day didn't drag on too much. I didn't get an opportunity to feel bored. 4) I am grateful I contacted another a

It was just a glorious day today. Nice and sunny with a slight cool breeze to take the sting out of the sun. I had a terrible night with stomach cramps but I didn't sleep too much today which is great. I am looking forward to starting a new era at work without my French boss. It will be interesting to see how the dynamic changes and what changes there will be. Universe 1) I am grateful the stomach cramps I experienced happened last night and not on a work night. 2) I am grateful the cramps were manageable from about 3am and have been fairly quiet today. 3) I am grateful I was able to help my sister out with some jewellery for her ladies lunch today 4) I am grateful that although I didn't do much today, I haven't been bored and I feel quite well rested. 5) I am grateful for my healthy dinner of grilled chicken with lemon salt and pepper and salad. It tasted amazing. 6) I am grateful for the smell of summer today to go with the warm weather. The smell of BBQ's in