Dare2Diva is Grateful

OK, I have to be completely honest. My mental health has taken a dive and I am struggling. I feel so down. I want to cry all the time, I can't concentrate and thinking about words is really difficult. I was supposed to have taken a 4 day weekend to study and do my assignment. Unfortunately I have decided to withdraw from my course. It is just too hard. I can't cope. I can't concentrate and nothing makes sense. I have been really down about this because This course was really important to me. it meant so much and to have to quit because I am too dumb to do the course is killing me. Anyway, I don't want to think about gratitude today. It is all too much. I am having trouble keeping on track at work and I need to make sure I keep on top of that so I don't lose my job or give people an excuse to think I have mental health decline. That is the worst thing. Anyway I a sorry but I need to take care of my own health at the moment and thinking about gratitude gives me anxi

Today.... I am grateful that I am working from home today. It is in stead of my usual Wednesday. I am grateful that my day has been stress free. I wanted some chill time I am grateful to be having steak and salad for dinner tonight. It is just what I feel like. I am grateful that when I washed my hair the crusty dried fluid from the blisters after bleaching the shit out of my hair actually washed out which is fabulous. I am grateful that I like my hair. I didn't quite like it yesterday. No, that isn't quite true. I didn't hate it but I wasn't used to it and i thought it was a little drastic. I do like it today and I will have fun playing with my make up to get the colouring right.

Today.... I am grateful that I woke up refreshed. I didn't have such a great night. I am grateful that I could farewell our director by being there for his lunch. I am grateful that I have such a great team, and beyond, that is flexible, kind encouraging and supportive. I am grateful I was able to get my hair done yesterday afternoon. I think I like it. I am grateful that the bleach didn't ruin my hair and that the burns on my scalp are just superficial and will be healed by the time I go back to work on Tuesday. I am grateful to be working from home today. It was such a late night for me and I needed the extra sleep.

Today....... I am grateful for my relaxing quiet start to the day. 4am would have to be my favourite time of the day. I am grateful for my makeup collection. It makes me feel good when I have makeup on and my routine really invigorates me for the day. I am grateful for my summer wardrobe. Being able to choose from a large number of outfits is great. I am grateful for my jewelry collection. I can easily jazz up an outfit I am grateful I got a bargain with my 2 watches. Somebody was online selling my similar watch from the same brand and they are charging $450 for each watch. I got mine for $75 each. A huge bargain. I am grateful for a great dinner last night. Bacon and egg pie. I love it. I love my bedtime. I would say that 6:30pm is my second favourite time of day. I jump into bed pop the telly on and I am set. So relaxing.

Today..... I am grateful for my strawberry milk I had for breakfast. I am grateful for the banana bread I had for morning tea. I am grateful I wasn't so cold in the office. I am grateful I am able to financially help my sister and her family out. I am grateful that Pa made dinner and he brings it too me. Bless him. I am grateful I could get into bed around 6:30 and I got to sleep quite quickly. I was really quite tired.

This time I was just overwhelmed by everything that i needed to do that i didn't even touch my computer to log this entry. I am grateful that my tooth/gum ache, from the extraction and it being over a week, didn't wake me up during the night I am grateful for my quiet morning routine. It helps to center me I am grateful my sister took me to the station. She is really cherry and upbeat and I like the 10 mins in the car with her I am grateful I finally got to the dentist and they fit me in. My tooth gap needed flushing with betedine and packed. Finally no, little, pain. I am grateful I got my nails done. Nail day with my sister is very important I am grateful that the watches I bought off somebody vie facebook actually work now I have new batteries in them I am grateful for my bedroom and my tv because if I want to keep things relaxed I can just go into my room lie down and watch tv. It is great. I am grateful my niece did a fake tan on me. It look really good and makes