Dare2Diva is Grateful

Wow, what an awesome sleep. Just what I needed. Visit to Doogy was good, then home for more sleep because my head started up again. I really need to sort out these migraines. I have decided that I need to stretch myself and actually do something on the weekends other than stay home. I am going to start preparing myself to go for a drive next weekend and see how I go. I still can't be around people that know me because I am so scared of doing or saying something that I shouldn't. I can cry at the drop of a hat, freak out, get violent etc so I need to keep things pretty distant. This also means that I am terribly lonely and I hat that and it makes me incredibly sad, but on the other hand, it is what I crave. I crave isolation. By being isolated, I don't have to be what others expect me to be. I have a persona at work which is what is expected and I can maintain that because I am not in a small focus group for any longer than an hour at a time. When I am out with friends, I a

OK, so I woke up feeling like death (thanks to a new med) and it was cold and miserable outside, but I hauled my arse to work and the drive was pretty good. We had an issue at work so my French boss led the revolution and had a couple of us working from 2 looking for a venue to hold a Christmas party. Hilarious. It looks like it will be great. Universe 1) I am grateful I didn't stay home and mope about this morning and instead chose to go to work. 2) I am grateful for my early morning coffee run. 3) I am grateful I managed to get quite a bit of work done this morning that was really annoying me. 4) I am grateful for our afternoon of event management. It was the most fun I have had at work in a long time. 5) I am grateful my migraine started on the way home and not while I was at work. Blessings

Today seems very much like a blur. I remember getting to work and getting quite a bit done and then buying a coffee with one of the girls then not a lot until I went and saw my shrink. I broke down in his office today and hence, I am on double dose of lithium because my levels are only half what they should be plus I have another tablet which I really don't want to take because tablets of this type have had me punch holes in walls etc and I am already on the edge but I have to do something so I will give it a go and I have the crisis team on my speed dial. Universe 1) I am grateful I managed to get myself off to work on autopilot today. 2) I am grateful I was able to avoid the rain today. 3) I am grateful for the company for my morning coffee. I am hoping to have extra special company tomorrow! 4) I am grateful I lost it in front of my shrink today. I try to hold things in so the big guys that hold the card (aka keys to the nut house) don't see but at least I am on his ra

After waking up thinking I was late for work, it finally dawned on me that I had the day off. I got a lot done today, including my hair, but tonights plans have been postponed so I am about to go and grab some pasta and chocolate and get ready for the Rocky Horror ep of Glee. Awesome. Universe 1) I am grateful I wasn't late for work today and I am grateful I managed to get a sleep in 2) I am grateful I was able to get a bunch of things done that have been hanging around. 3) I am grateful that I was able to get my hair done today. 4) I am grateful I wasn't at work today because I would have been on my way home and there is currently a major car accident on the main motorway that I use to get home. 5) I am grateful I get to enjoy some amazing pasta and wonderful TV tonight in peace and quiet. Blessings

It is the peak of the spring racing carnival here in Australia with Melbourne Cup day. Melbourne gets a public holiday, yes for a horse race, but we were allowed to take half day if we had worked enough hours. I have an additional 17 up my sleeve so I though why not. This meant I was able to get to teaching almost 4hrs earlier than usual and they were pleased considering they are a home school family and are home all day anyway and I have been able to pick my younger niece up from netball training. I am looking forward to a day off tomorrow and gold class movie and dinner with my sister for her birthday after an early morning blood test that is. Universe 1) I am grateful that the rain stopped by mid morning. 2) I am grateful for some more email banter which I find quite amusing and breaks up my day. 3) I am grateful I speak French Accent. My boss can be difficult to understand at times so I end up translating for people. 4) I am grateful I got to leave work early so I could finis

I had quite a good start to the morning. Work was good and I had a companion to go on a walk. One of the girls in my team who is quite a nice girl and not annoying. The weather turned really horrible on my way home but it was nice to stop in on my sister before bunkering down at home for the evening. I think a hot chocolate is in order tonight. Universe 1) I am grateful I woke up and got myself ready without grumbling. This early morning start is quite good. 2) I am grateful I got to work at a good hour even though I left my make up bag at home and I had to go back and that I had to get petrol/gas. 3) I am grateful for my breakfast this morning at work without interruption or annoyance. 4) I am grateful I had a fun and flirty email conversation with Irish. A good chuckle is fun indeed. 5) I am grateful I was able to help my sister out with something today. I am also grateful I was able to stop in and visit them all and all were awake. 6) I am grateful I got home in this horribl

Another quiet day. Another day where I ma not putting any pressure on me to be anyone, or do anything. 1) I am grateful for another good sleep 2) I am grateful for a simple breakfast of tea and a roll 3) I am grateful for the visit from my younger sister, younger niece and youngest nephew. 4) I am grateful my sister drove me to the supermarket to get some fruit for work 5) I am grateful for an early dinner so I can go to bed early and be ready for a new working week. Blessings