Grateful for this Saturday
I had a really good sleep last night which was great. I had an appointment with my psychologist and I always feel great after a meeting with her. I guess great isn't the right word, but it is a real relief to be able to dump a small bit of what is going on in my head and not be looked at like I am a freak. I am more than capable of classing myself as a freak as it is. I have realised that I am not only mourning the fact that I won't have children but I am mourning the fact that I strongly believe I have never felt true love ('it' never loved me. He loved the idea that my family might have money and as soon as that money was lost he started cheating) and I don't think I ever will. There is a big difference between the love of family and friends and the love of a true soul mate. I am mourning a lot recently and yet I don't feel sad. I think have lost the ability to feel emotion altogether. Oh well. C'est la vie. Universe 1) I am grateful for a few laughs l