Dare2Diva is Grateful

It was an early start to see a psychologist today. She is fabulous. I am feeling so relieved that I will have the opportunity to dump my brain out onto somebody who isn't going to judge me. Awesome. I have a new baby in my life. I have a MacBook Pro and I am in love. It is going to take a while to get used to a new operating system but what I know already, is wonderful. It has been another scorcher today so I have spent the rest of the afternoon in the air conditioning catching up on tv viewing. It has been great. Universe 1) I am grateful I got up early and got my act together quickly. 2) I am grateful I have found a great psychologist. It is a great opportunity or me. 3) I am grateful for the new addition to my life. 4) I am grateful I got everything I needed to do today done before midday so I could enjoy the air conditioned cool of my home 5) I am grateful I have been able to catch up on my tv viewing today. Blessings

Such an interesting and fabulous day today. I started off with a blood test (one of the joys of nuttiness) and had a glimpse of fabulousness. My trip to work was awesome with my music going and when I was walking up the stairs, my boss started blowing kisses to me. What a great way to start the work day. It is really hot at the moment but I am really lucky that I don't seem to be affected by it at all. I went for another walk which I really enjoyed before heading to the shopping center/mall to grab some lunch nearly having to extract a little asian man from my arse. What is wrong with people? Don't they know about personal space? Work wise, I have completed so much and I surprise myself. The only scary part is that I really don't know when I did it. I know I did, but time stands still and I do things and then a split second later I am back to reality and I start to question, WTF? Universe 1) I am grateful for my little glimpse of fabulousness this morning. 2) I am grate

Right now it is hard to sit here and complain. Not only did Queensland get extreme floods a few weeks ago, parts were hit with a cyclone this morning. While it is hard to complain, I still have some weird things going on. I am hypo-manic still which is great but something else is going on. I feel like I have a scream in my chest that can't wait to get out. Yes, you read right. I have a scream in my chest. I feel like my chest is about to explode and my heart seems to be pounding. All noise is really loud, all visuals are really bright and sharp and seem to be extremely overwhelming. I am not scared by this although it does concern me that perhaps this is the beginning of the end of the good feeling for a while. I have been thinking today that perhaps I have been given this illness as a punishment for something I have done in a past life or something in this one. The highs are cruel. They are like a drug that you just can't seem to get enough of but when you do have it it is sim

After a pretty good sleep, I have had a pretty good day. I am having trouble concentrating because my mind is thinking, almost obsessing about 1 particular thought so if it isn't meant to come true then I hope the thoughts go away quickly. Universe 1) I am grateful I slept better last night than I have in a long while. 2) I am grateful I had some company half way to work which helped me to stay awake. I drove my brother in law to work and by the time I got there I was feeling pretty awake. 3) I am grateful I got such a lot of work done today. I am so up to date that I don't have anything to do tomorrow apart from a 4hr meeting. 4) I am grateful my brain is able to wonder off and not get destructive. Sure, I have destructive moments but today it was pretty fun. 5) I am grateful for the lunchtime walk and company today. I am so surprised that I get on so well with people at work. I seem to have really fit in there. I am trying not to turn it around and think that if I let

I slept through my alarm. I just didn't hear it at all. Mind you, I had extreme trouble getting to sleep last night so I am not surprised. Anyway, today was another one of those days where time stood still. It is like I am in fast forward while the rest of the world is on play. Very odd. I had a couple of cute conversations today and I think I have a crush for sure on Doogy. Without a doubt. I had to see him today so he could check up on me and fill out some forms. I just love that I can chat with him and he doesn't see me as weird. He says he is spiritual and psychic which I don't doubt. He has a calm about him. Fabulous. Universe 1) I am grateful I have flexible hours so that sleeping through an alarm isn't such an issue. 2) I am grateful I was able to get ready in 30mins and take my brother in law to work. 3) I am grateful I had some peace and quiet to get a lot of work done today. 4) I am grateful for my email conversation with an absolute sweetheart today. An

After a pretty crappy sleep last night, I woke up quite well again. Hooray for mania. It was bloody hot today but I still went for a walk. I really enjoyed myself. I think just getting out of the office and soaking up the colours is amazing. Colours take on a different appearance when I am manic. They are brighter and have an energy and make me feel so good. Even when I am normal they are just colours. When I am depressed colours are just shades of grey. I am really lucky at the moment. Universe 1) I am grateful I was able to help my sister out today. 2) I am grateful I am manic at the moment. I don't have to worry about not sleeping. 3) I am grateful that I have been able to focus and get so much work done. It feels great. 4) I am grateful that I can enjoy colours the way I do at the moment. Colours fill me with such excitement and joy it is amazing. 5) I am grateful I still have a control over myself as in I know I am manic and I know that these feelings are the mania talk

I'm not sure what to think about this weekend. It has all been rather surreal. It feels like Friday was such a long way away. It feels like I woke up days ago instead of this morning. It is like time is standing still yet moving at the speed of light all at the same time. I'm not sure what to make of it but I will go with it for now. Universe 1) I am grateful that I got some sleep last night. 2) I am grateful that I didn't have too much of a sleeping pill hangover when I woke up. 3) I am grateful that My 10yr old nephew slept well at my place and seemed to enjoy himself. 4) I am grateful I was able to help my sister with the grocery shopping today. 5) I am grateful I am ready for bed already and really looking forward to it. I am looking forward to going to work yet I am a little apprehensive at the same time. Blessings