Dare2Diva is Grateful

After the night from hell, I have had a great day. I couldn't sleep and when I finally got my head to calm and I started to snooze I would have a nightmare and wake up. I can't remember the last time I had a nightmare so it was really odd. Anyway, I saw Dr Doogy and had a chat, got some drugs and then went to visit my sister. My niece helped me rearrange my room and now I have my 10yr old nephew playing sleep overs. It seems to have been about 3 days in one and I just have a really odd feeling. Not bad odd, just odd. I have to say that I love the fact that I am infectious lol. Thanks Doogy. Makes me laugh. Universe 1) I am grateful that I didn't have to try and cope with a work day today after a pretty crappy night. Not sleeping is one thing but not sleeping and having nightmares is just not impressive or welcomed. 2) I am grateful for my chat with Doogy today. There is something about that Doc that I trust and I like which is great. He better not move! 3) I am gratefu

Great start to the day. Ok, cut the sarcasm. It was a shit start to the day at work when I had meetings with external suppliers and my manager is sick and the GM ditches me. Being verbally abused is not my idea of fun. I did manage to avoid leaning across the table and beating the crap out of them which is a personal victory. The rest of the day was great I have to admit. I took an extra long lunch break simply because I deserved it and I shared the experience with a colleague. I accomplished so much in the afternoon although the day seemed to drag on. I have to admit that I really enjoyed my drive home, and i mean, I really did. I was almost elated. I had my music going and I enjoyed my music. I saw light shining out from a small break in the clouds and it was like a guiding light. Very odd experience actually. I also had some thoughts and I have worked out my illness is very much like a colour spectrum. When I am manic, I feel colourful. Bright and amazing much like fireworks but in

Back to work today. Boy it was a tough one but I made it to work on time and I had a really good day. I was kept really busy, I got to catch up on the goss, I had a nice long walk in the heat but still, it was nice to get out and I finished the day with a trip to the shrink who has added sedatives to my holy trinity (anti psychotics, antidepressants and anti-fun ie mood stabilisers) so I get the Goldilocks effect (not too high, not too low, but just right). Sure, these aren't medical terms, these are my terms which sum everything up nicely. Off to bed shortly to test out the new meds and see how things go. Hopefully I wake up in the morning! Universe 1) I am grateful I didn't take the easy option and stay home today. 2) I am grateful for my morning walk to grab a coffee. After 90mins, work was driving me nuts. 3) I am grateful I had a good day today. I really enjoyed being at work. Just the right amount of stress, and cruise. 4) I am grateful for my walk today. It helps t

Happy Australia day! I even got a present. I have had the house to myself all day and the peace doesn't end until 9pm Brilliant. The air conditioner has been on all day due to the 41C or 105F temp today but I did go out for a break and quite enjoyed the heat. Chicken salad and strawberries and yogurt for dinner are just the ticket. Back to work tomorrow but only 2 days before the weekend. Perfect. Universe 1) I am grateful that I live in such a wonderful country where we are safe and free to live our lives the way we see fit within the law. 2) I am grateful my parents chose Australia to migrate to. It couldn't have been any number of countries but they chose here. Good choice. 3) I am grateful I had the house to myself today. 4) I am grateful for an air conditioner on a day like today. 5) I am grateful for the break I had in the middle of the day. 6) I am grateful for the nice fresh and light dinner I have had. It was really fabulous and I am looking forward to having a

My post needs to start with the fact that 4yrs ago today, cancer stole my mum from my family. I say stole because that is what that dreadful evil disease does. 4 yrs ago today, my little sister and I were there when mum took her last breath. I know that her brain was dead days before and her mind, her very essence was dead months before that but still that day, everything ended. She didn't get to see her grand kids grow up, she didn't get to meet her great grandson or new little grandson and they didn't get to meet her. I am still angry. Angry with the disease, angry with the medical profession, angry with the way she had to live her last weeks and angry that nobody gave a damn. I just couldn't sleep last night. I was feeling quite hyperactive and as a result, my thoughts of cancelling my shrink appointment this week are thoughts only.I can cope with hyper moods but I don't cope with the lack of sleep. Needless to say I did start a little slowly this morning but I

It was so lovely not having to wake up early and go to work. I lay awake when I woke up and watched an episode of house before hitting the shower and the caffeine. I dropped my niece off home, had a cuppa and then went teaching. The joys of home schoolers and days off work! It was such a lovely day today and apparently it has been then hottest day this year but i haven't felt it actually. I teach up the mountains so it is quite a bit cooler up there. The sun through the trees and the cool breeze was wonderful today. Universe 1) I am grateful for a day off work today. A lazy morning whilst still getting up before 9am was great. 2) I am grateful for the morning cuppa I had with my sister 3) I am grateful for my drive up the mountains in the sun today. It was so peaceful and my mind didn't start racing. It was too preoccupied with the beautiful day. 4) I am grateful for the amazing 'tips' I have been getting from a fabulous tipstar. Hilarious reading yet very importa

I stuck to my plan! Yay me! I woke up early, had a shower, had breakfast and went out. My fav bra shop, www.heavenlycurves.com.au, had a buy 2 get 1 free sale that ended today so I took advantage. I got some great bras and I was very impressed. It was such a lovely day to be out and about. Nice and sunny and hot with a lovely breeze. I had a bit of a drive around after my shopping before heading home to baby sit. My niece has decided to office as her bedroom again tonight so I have had a bit of company. Teaching tomorrow so I plan to be up nice and early again. Universe 1) I am grateful I stuck to my plan today. 2) I am grateful for the beautiful sunshine which made being out and about so enjoyable. 3) I am grateful I had help to find some great bras. Amazing customer service yet again. 4) I am grateful I was able to baby sit today and the kids were so good. 5) I am grateful for some girl company tonight. Blessings