Grateful for this Saturday
Blimey, I am completely exhausted. Therapy session this morning and I had to have a nana nap. Usually nana naps last 2-3 hrs. Mine lasted 5 and I am looking forward to going back to bed. I worked out today that I am angry that I have never been able to determine who I am and now, I just seem to be this label of Bipolar. I don't know what else or who else I am and at 40, that pisses me off. I can't cry yet I need to. I can't scream but I need to and I can't feel but I need to. Now, I am angry at people that are happy or have good things happen if they have treated me badly in the past. The past is the past and that shouldn't be an issue now but they don't deserve good thing, they don't deserve happiness because the misery they caused me has just escalated and hasn't left. These people have left a brick on that wall and I can't knock them down. That pisses me off. I have to mention that being grateful is really difficult at the moment because gratitude