Dare2Diva is Grateful

Wow. What a day and I am not sure if I am comfortable with it all to be honest. Sure, I had a great sleep but woke up with a massive headache. Wrote my list of internal flaws for my psychologist before seeing her and gee, that was a list and a half but it all comes down to only a few underlying categories, the two biggest of which are that I am selfish and that I am weak. Tough to read, tough to hear but after todays session with my psychologist, it all makes sense. She put a stick blender into my brain and hit high speed. I feel good about getting the deep secrets out but still, I have only just scratched the surface and I feel like I am about to crack and lose control. Teasing these secrets out makes so much sense out of my life but still, I want to live in blissful insanity. Universe 1) I am grateful I had a good nights sleep last night 2) I am grateful I was able to see my psychologist and dump a lot of shit out on her. It is going to be tough trying to rebuild my thought patte

Thank Fuck it is Friday. That was the catch cry when I woke up this morning. I did enjoy waking up to an empty house though. I enjoyed my cup of tea and honey crumpets for breakfast in front of the news before getting ready for work. My trip into work was swift and blimey it went down hill from there. It wasn't a bad day by any means, but my brain wasn't focusing at all and I was about to kill when I read an email from a certain brudy ridicurus woman first thing. Anyway, I got to go into the city for a meeting which was draining, and then I did a bit of browsing before heading back to work. The royal wedding was on tonight and honestly, the bride looked beautiful, it is nice to see a young man that I have grown up watching get married but with all the issues facing Britain at the moment, spending that amount of money on a wedding when they could be helping people with that very money is a tough pill to swallow. My sister came around to steam the outfits for her inlays wedding s

What a great day. Well, firstly, my father has gone away until Sunday evening, and secondly, brudy ridicurus woman has moved work stations. The last bit is wonderful except that she said it is because she can't work near me. Look, I had a really good day and I was less stressed and less distracted so I can't complain, but she can't work near me???? Am I not loud enough when I eat or try to suck stuff out of amy teeth all day or is it just that my sloppy work ethic was starting to rub off on her? Good grief. I can't wait for my boss to come back next week so I can find out exactly what was said. Universe 1) I am grateful I didn't faint today. I was so tired, well, lets just say, beyond exhausted and I managed to get through. 2) I am grateful I completed all of my email tasks by lunch time. 3) I am grateful that brudy ridicurus woman has moved so I can now work in calm. 4) I am grateful my father has gone away for a few days. It gives me a break. 5) I am gratef

I had today off work which was a good thing because I could sleep in a little, see my gp and teach my homeschool family. I'm glad I saw my gp today. I am feeling very uneasy about everything going on and he just gives me a bit of reassurance. Today he said that it isn't my fault that I am irritable and angry and that I should just go with it, take myself out of situations when I feel like that and be kind to myself. Now, that is a concept. Teaching was ok, the day was ok and I want to stay in bed for another week but I need to get back to work tomorrow otherwise I can see myself crashing. It really isn't good that I rely on work so much to keep me sane. Universe 1) I am grateful I had today off work and that it was a planned day off. 2) I am grateful the weather was chilly making it a nice morning to stay in bed. 3) I am grateful I saw my gp today for a reality check. He calms me down quite a bit because I am so hard on myself. 4) I am grateful I was able to teach in

Finding it hard to be grateful today. I am in the worst pain from the extractions so far and the pain killers aren't really hitting it today. looks like a trip to the dentist tomorrow is in order. Anyway, enough whinging. Universe 1) I am grateful it was a public holiday today and that I didn't have to go to work. I was able to stay in bed for a while this morning while I lay in hope that the pain killers would work. 2) I am grateful I decided to get my arse out of the house and get my nails and feet done. I feel so much better. 3) I am grateful that I have a hairdresser in the family because this colour and cut would have cost me much more than $12.50! 4) I am grateful I saw my sister and her family again today. Just a little it of bright in my day 5) I am grateful I have tomorrow off work as well. I didn't know if I would need it but I decided I would do it anyway. I have a GP appointment and I have decided to teach my homeschool family during the day tomorrow so I

Easter Sunday doesn't mean anything to me as I don't identify as Christian so it wasn't a special day in the slightest. I don't mean to sound like I am spitting on the idea of Christianity by saying that, it is just my previous experience with the Christian faith means you can be as much of an ass as you like to others and as long as you repent and say that God is your saviour, good things will happen, and you can continue to be just as evil as ever. Sure, there are some good ones out there but they are few and far between. Anyway, enough about that. I have been in a lot more pain today with my left lower jaw. Upper right is fine but I guess I expected that. Pain killers aren't touching it so I have just had to suck it up so to speak. The hot flushes and high temps are still plaguing me but all in all, I have had quite a nice day. Spent most of it in bed watching movies and then this evening my younger sister cooked a lamb roast which I managed to mush up the veggie